Lilies and Sparrows

Where to begin? This chapter of my life has been eye opening, heart wrenching at times. Where is my faith? Do I have any? These are wonderful questions that I have been afraid to ask myself. Fearful of the truth I would find in my heart yet the Lord beckons that I ask Him to search my heart for any offensive way in me. Examine me, God, and know my heart; test me, and know my thoughts.   See if there is in me any hurtful way, and lead me along the eternal way.    Psalm 139:23-24 As COVID 19 grew in the United States, the thoughts in my mind were that this couldn't be real and that I just wanted to wake up from the nightmare back in the 'normal' world. Nothing about our world was normal, though we had all gotten used to it. The riots of Black Lives Matter created more hostility and confusion to communities when in reality all lives matter. (John 3:16) The blatant LBGTQ agenda growing increasingly in the media. I was frustrated that I would have to change m...

Psalm 46:10 He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;     I will be exalted among the nations,     I will be exalted in the earth.” This lovely verse tends to be plastered everywhere on cute wall art to hang in your home (yes, I've got one, too) and in inspirational pictures you see on Instagram and online. "Be still and know". It sounds quaint and sweet, right? Be still and know. Well here's the thing: this girl has one heck of a time being still. The world around me and my own self inflicted schedule urges me to be everything but quiet and still. ' Be still ' , in the Strong's Concordance , is some word I can't spell but is pronounced ' raw-faw ' . "Cool, great." You say "but what does it mean?" I'm glad you asked. ' B e still ' : To sink, relax, let drop, abandon. This command from God is for me to set my self exalted priorities down so that He can be ...

Tasks of the day run through my mind : feeding our 8 month old breakfast, laundry piling up, errands, bank stuff and now this COVID19 -- as if we needed anymore reason to be health conscious. Compound that by wasted time scrolling through Instagram or Facebook, I easily get caught in my mind and thoughts can spiral out of control. Tasks end up unfinished, frustration builds and here I go on the roller coaster of self again. If I don't catch myself quick enough I can do some damage with my words to others (especially my husband) for not helping me or doing something I want him to do right now. The Bible tells us of a woman, Martha, who was "anxious and troubled" in her thoughts. It showed through her frustration that she took out on others. PraiseGod I'm not alone and there is an antidote! It starts with our thinking. Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister call...