Lilies and Sparrows

Tasks of the day run through my mind : feeding our 8 month old breakfast, laundry piling up, errands, bank stuff and now this COVID19 -- as if we needed anymore reason to be health conscious. Compound that by wasted time scrolling through Instagram or Facebook, I easily get caught in my mind and thoughts can spiral out of control. Tasks end up unfinished, frustration builds and here I go on the roller coaster of self again. If I don't catch myself quick enough I can do some damage with my words to others (especially my husband) for not helping me or doing something I want him to do right now. The Bible tells us of a woman, Martha, who was "anxious and troubled" in her thoughts. It showed through her frustration that she took out on others. PraiseGod I'm not alone and there is an antidote! It starts with our thinking. Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister call...

Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” But the Lord answered her, “ Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her. ” Luke 10:38-42 T his text is so rich and relative to my life. As a wife and mother, I tend to wake up and chase the day,  serving and keeping the house running – as I see fit anyway . Laundry, dishes, sweeping, vacuuming, gardening, bills, take the garbage out.. oh I gotta go to the grocery store. It’s 5 already? I haven’t started dinner yet! You name it, it’s gotta get done! You know what I mean? Our tasks mount...

If you’re a new mother like myself you may have been dealing with “baby blues” which is another term for postpartum depression. Scary thoughts, d oubts, worries, self absorption, self denial and a new sense of responsibility are all very real. This wa s totally not MY ideal picture of motherhood but there is something DEEPER happening in this new chapter of life. Depression can take us deeper into self loathing and self focus and there is  only  antidote. It isn’t “You can do it, just try harder!”; motivational self talk. It’s not getting lost in a bowl of ice cream or candy and zoning out before a movie or social media. It isn’t going on a shopping spree. It’s also not obsessing on feelings and blaming God, the world, our husbands a nd our children for where we are in life. No, it is time to sit before the Throne of Grace like God calls us to (Hebrew 4:16). I opened my Bible to Psalm 119 and began reading aloud to myself the ancient but living words (Hebr...

Recently as a new mother I have been struggling with sharing my faith because I choose to stay at home to raise my daughter. Before I was working with other adults on a regular schedule then I transitioned from working outside of the home, to stay at home mama, and honestly it has been quite difficult. But as I reflect on God’s love, He has been good to show me how to share my faith even in this new calling. I was standing at my stove cooking breakfast telling my daughter who had just become two months old how much I love her when a thought entered my mind. “I can show her my love better by teaching her about where the source of love comes from, Jesus Christ”. So I began talking to her about the love of God in the simplest way that I could. I recounted what the Bible says in John 3:16, “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” Sharing this simple truth was such a boost to my own faith...